I was trying to get some forty winks while taking the train back last night but I could not get any. The images of my grandmother saying her last good bye to me kept coming up. My paternal grandma, whom i always call "ahma", passed away on January 27. The last time she spoke to me was January 24 ... that was her last goodbye.
Although she left us almost 2 months ago, I remember vividly that the whole family was by her bedside during her last moments. We saw her heartbeat at 30 beats/min at one moment and other moment at 180 beats /min. She did not open her eyes to see but I believe she could hear us and feel us. Everyone cried.. including my parents. I have never seen my dad drop a tear before (maybe once during my grandpa's funeral). My mother (whom could not get along with my grandma,, you know.. the mother & daughter-in-law matters...) cried too. It was a heart wenching sight... because my grandma used to be a very strong woman yet she now she's on tubes and oxygen. About 15minutes later, my grandma's heartbeat stopped.. I felt happy for her actually as she ended her life peacefully. We assured her that we will take care of our two unmarried uncles.
I haven't got the chance to go back home yet... I dont know how it is to see the living room without the bed that my grandma used to sleep on. She has been on that bed shortly after my grandfather passed away in Nov 1997.
Life goes on.. I hope that she will have a blessed new life with lots of helpful people around her.
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